an Official apology (blogmas day????) ~Victoria

I don’t know what I can do i’m aware i’ve missed All the posts from day 15 onwards (so 15, 17, 19, 21, 23 and 25). That’s 5 posts to catch up on and don’t worry I will Make It Up to y’all. In other news Val and I are finally reunited and it’s the…

leaving Yale (blogmas day 22) ~ Valerie 

I just woke up from a dream in which I saw Mia for the first time in 4 months and burst into hysterical happy tears. I’m sitting cramped in the middle seat on a plane from New York to Hong Kong, and it would be pitch black if it weren’t for the emergency exit lights…

identity (blogmas day 14) ~ Valerie

“Where are you from?” One line, four words, and the most DREADED question you could ask me back while I was in Hong Kong. On the surface, I’d smile sheepishly and say ‘I don’t know’, while on the inside I battled a whirlwind of inner conflict. Should I say I was from Hong Kong? Would they…

I’M SORRY (blogmas day 13) ~ Victoria

I’ve been a mess everything’s been a mess it’s also been a really good mess and I’m glad to be able to escape from said mess but also sad because I love Durham so much. I know this post is late shut up!!! Val and I will continue to basically gush and fangirl over our universities…

bright college years (blogmas day 12) ~Valerie

(this post is largely me gushing about college; if you find that obnoxious—which it kind of is—please click away) I was on Facebook scrolling through my newsfeed when I saw that a friend from Yale had changed her profile picture and captioned it ‘the shortest, gladdest years of life’. Those words sparked something—I remember thinking I knew…

it’s over (blogmas day 10) ~ Valerie

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I HAVE A 7-PAGE ESSAY DUE TOMORROW THAT I HAVEN’T STARTED euthanize me (yes, this is a cry for help) I had a psych final yesterday which I did really well on so I came back, told myself ‘you deserve this’ and didn’t do work the ENTIRE DAY. Which was a…

shit (blogmas day 9) ~ Victoria

i get it i’m too invested emotionally but still… if anyone could give me a slap right now why are we conditioned, as humans, to be attracted to the thing we don’t have the thing that’s the most dangerous the thing that can hurt us the most why WHY sh it i told myself i’d…

being lazy (blogmas day 7) ~ Victoria

It’s the 8th of December I’m constantly going to be late but at least I’m always just a day behind and not dayS behind. At the moment I’m not typing on my laptop I”m actually on Rachel’s laptop. I’ve just facetimed her family, wrapped a few presents and now am hanging out in her room….

dating, Val edition (blogmas day 6) ~ Valerie

I’ve never been on a date. Sure, I’ve gone out with guys I’ve dated but I have never been on a date in the pure I’m-trying-to-get-to-know-you-and-see-if-I-like-you sense, the kind of date Vic talked about in her last post. With my exes (it sounds like I’ve had a whole string of them but nope there’s just 2), I…

dating? (blogmas day 5) ~ Victoria

I’m late i’m late i’m late I think this will be the general theme of blogmas tbh (sorry val) We’re trying our best!! It’s actually quite difficult so. Dating etiquette. Clearly I’ve been hinting at potentially being interested in someone here and all that in the past few posts so I’m going to just recap…